Forbiden Cabbinet

I close my eyes to look inside me
There is so much going on at the moment
What is it that I see?

A young woman caged like an animal
A child behind the bars...

I search the file cabinets of memories
Precious memories, smiles & lost conversations
Flashbacks occur in a fraction of a second
The smell of a rainy day-my best friend-my first love-a feeling of beauty

The child whimpers
The young woman-gazing at her scars

I delve deeper in the cabinets
The cobwebs disappear with my touch
Moths begin to fly away from disturbed to resting areas
I see places that I instantly recognize
Forgetting my fears as I walk through them
People surrounding me, the sunshine, the splashing rain, a smile from my mother...

All gone…Displaced
Lost in the corners of my mind

The child innocent
But the lady now attempting to parse
I finally reach a locked cabinet
Memories forever lost to time and fate

Behind me I hear a growl from the cage
And the innocent face begins to wail

I’ve gone too far in my mind
I begin to resort my feelings, memories… thoughts
Slowly backing away
Putting it back where it belongs

I lean on a wall..I can hear my breath

The caged girl glares at me now
The child is once again silent

I open my eyes
Glaring at the stars...