Masquerade

Indeed you've been hard to understand
As radical as you are
But you've done the unexpected
And left me quite early--quite far

How I see you
The way you are, or the way you seem to be?

Yes I doubted you
Coz that’s what you brought me to
By keeping me in the dark
I wish I'd have known it when I needed to

But I can’t ignore anymore
Coz I misplaced me
Its not about forgetting , or
Coz its about my love for thee

Now that you are honest
I love you even more without regret
Your talks...shallowest
Asking me to forget

I dont know how do I see you
The way you are, or the way you seem to be?

My thoughts of nothingness
Is my unfaithfulness to myself
But your radical change
seems like a conflict- a shade of you, unknown to your own self

Don’t make that mistake
Come back, look, recognize thyself
Don’t delve deep, as you know what it takes
What it takes to trust as alien self.

Don’t change, don’t unveil
Learn the truth, as you know the game
I know you are aware of-
Aware of the soul aim

Yes- Please tell me how do I see you
The way you are, or the way ou seem to be?

Nothing fades away
As it once was present
And so here were
Both of us sent

The damage has been done
I don’t know where I stand
Did we swap places?
w/out a command

If so,

The musique wont play
The rhythm wont flow
During a masquerade
The truth wont glow

Therefore I ask you again...my love

Tell me, How do I see you?
The way you are?
Or the way you seem to be?

Death

A senior souls departure

Influencing thee



Departing solemnly

Thy witnessing the divine withdrawal



Design unsexing itself

Reveling its crude nature



Yet...essential



Scourging not only thy thoughts

But also the flesh on thee

Buddha Bar IV Agricantus Amatevi

Departure

Time of departure
Veering homeland

Surmised thee my archer
Of ensuing my passive command

Why do I crave for thy caress?
When thy caressed my hand

Vacillating thy loftiness
For thy lofted for my jitters stand

Time of departure
Veering homeland

Amassing my abated stature

Learning, design is freehand...

Forbiden Cabbinet

I close my eyes to look inside me
There is so much going on at the moment
What is it that I see?

A young woman caged like an animal
A child behind the bars...

I search the file cabinets of memories
Precious memories, smiles & lost conversations
Flashbacks occur in a fraction of a second
The smell of a rainy day-my best friend-my first love-a feeling of beauty

The child whimpers
The young woman-gazing at her scars

I delve deeper in the cabinets
The cobwebs disappear with my touch
Moths begin to fly away from disturbed to resting areas
I see places that I instantly recognize
Forgetting my fears as I walk through them
People surrounding me, the sunshine, the splashing rain, a smile from my mother...

All gone…Displaced
Lost in the corners of my mind

The child innocent
But the lady now attempting to parse
I finally reach a locked cabinet
Memories forever lost to time and fate

Behind me I hear a growl from the cage
And the innocent face begins to wail

I’ve gone too far in my mind
I begin to resort my feelings, memories… thoughts
Slowly backing away
Putting it back where it belongs

I lean on a wall..I can hear my breath

The caged girl glares at me now
The child is once again silent

I open my eyes
Glaring at the stars...