Monday, December 7, 2009

Asheeqati₄

I have been accused
of unnatural intoxication
a kind of infatuation
appreciated, not abused

Accusation of nursing madness—infused
like happiness, contentment—a conjugation
on a path for ecstasy—of preservation
with received reaction, I am only amused

I took upon this voyage with its hue—technicolor
guided by instincts of shakti₁
driven by love, grace and bhakti₂
yes, you can call me bipolar

I want nothing more than mukti₃
I only thirst for you—asheeqati₄

Nisha Balani
December, 2009

Shakti₁(Sanskrit): Goddess energy/power
bhakti₂(Sanskri):
an active involvement by the devotee in divine worship
mukti₃(Sanskrit):liberation, Nirvana
Asheeqati₄(Arabic)
My beloved

Sunday, December 6, 2009

India and China

And finally I fought against the odds and am finally going to Hong Kong for a semester study abroad.

I start this trip from India. I will be spending a month in India before I take off for HK.

I will be documenting my travels, experiences, pictures, videos and insights on this blog to share with other me's out there who would be interested. And of course for friends who will be reading this through facebook streaming.

Please feel free to provide feedback, comments, suggestions and random thoughts while I am on my voyage.

Grace,
N

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Hong Kong


I stand before you in honor
Not adornment, but plead
My head held high
I ask for grace
For mercy

The cloudy haze prominent today
Filthy yet beautiful
Settlements on this cliff
Stories, legends, lives
A butterfly dancing away

O! Save the islands
from the mist
For I want to return
One day-

Nisha Balani
Fall 2009
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

On Time Travelers Wife

Swinging through
Past and future
Visiting present often
Veering your beloved
With little or mo sign
Wandering like an orphan

I have known you
For before than here
Before now

You visited me
You evoked love in to me

Concioisly I waited
With clothes, food and parched lips
For another story
For another glance
Perhaps a kiss of serenity
Unfolding mystey

For I have known you
Before than here
Before now

Now I bear your legacy
With which I am in harmony
I nurture in my womb
Of which I am entitled
I winder-not worry
Can you see your tomb?

For I want to posses
That which I never did

I have known you
Before than here
Before now...

Nisha Balani
In reaction to 'The Time Travelers Wife' the movie, writen on a plane to Hong Kong, Fall 2009

Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Natural Intoxication?


I have been accused
of being high
The learned put it out as
"unnatural intoxication"

Accusation of nursing
a madness,
What they call
accusation of love, if you may
a feeling of all-

Accused and said no more
Silence would speak for itself-

Nisha Balani
Summer, 2006
Mumbai, India

Friday, October 2, 2009

Serenity




I am aloof of my ego.
I am complete.
Can you hear me laugh? This laugh of serenity.
Only those can hear who recognize the laugh.
I have mastered.
I am aloof of my ego.

What you do on to me, is not me.
I am not me.
I am not this body, mind or my memory.
I am none of those or more. I am.
And this that I am, is unshakable.

Swirling and Whirling. I am.
Swirling and Whirling.... and Whirling... I am...

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Ultimate Complexity

"The Universe as we know, began in almost absolute simplicity, and it has been getting more complex for about fifteen billion years. In another billion years it will be still more complex than it is now. In a billion years-- It is always getting more complex. It is moving toward...something. It is moving toward some kind of ultimate complexity. We might not get there. An atom of hydrogen might not get there, or a leaf, or a man, or a planet might not get here, to that ultimate complexity. But we are all moving towards it--everything in the universe is moving towards it. And that final complexity, that thing we are all moving to, is what I choose to call God.

If you don't like the word God, call it Ultimate Complexity. Whatever you call it, the whole universe is moving towards it. "

-Gregory David Roberts Shantaram.


Sunday, August 30, 2009

Don't just stare at me, come take a dive.
Don't just wonder of my depth, come look.
Don't just ponder on your thoughts making poetry,
Instead soak your feet and taste me...

For I have been flowing through this town long before
Your Grandfather sat on the banks and counted his quarters.

I wont hurt you. Come play with me,
I gleam, I shine, I quench.
I am the River that has been flowing
Through your town
Even when James counted his Quarters.


-Nisha Balani
August 2009


Not Waving But Drowning- Stevie Smith

Nobody heard him, the dead man,
But still he lay moaning:
I was much further out than you thought
And not waving but drowning.

Poor chap, he always loved larking
And now he's dead
It must have been too cold for him his heart gave way,
They said.

Oh, no no no, it was too cold always
(Still the dead one lay moaning)
I was much too far out all my life
And not waving but drowning.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Come to me


I long for you
Even though I touched you not too long ago...

I crave for your smell
Even though I was aroused by your aura

I seek for your glare
Even though you lay your eyes on me for more than I expected....

I sit here
Wanting you a little more each day
I wait patiently
For I know you will come to me....

Monday, April 13, 2009

Lilith


Of Adam's first wife, Lilith, it is told
(The witch he loved before the gift of Eve,)
That, ere the snake's, her sweet tongue could deceive,
And her enchanted hair was the first gold.
And still she sits, young while the earth is old,
And, subtly of herself contemplative,
Draws men to watch the bright web she can weave,
Till heart and body and life are in its hold.
The rose and poppy are her flower; for where
Is he not found, O Lilith, whom shed scent
And soft-shed kisses and soft sleep shall snare?
Lo! As that youth's eyes burned at thine, so went
Thy spell through him, and left his straight neck bent
And round his heart one strangling golden hair.

-Roseetti

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Art of Living News Article (USC)


The first Youth Empowerment Seminar Plus (YES+) is coming to USC next Thursday to give students a chance to relax, rejuvenate and cleanse.

Nisha Balani, a third-year global supply chain and operations management student, volunteered for two years with The Art of Living Foundation, before organizing the first workshop ever to be held at USC.

"The reason I brought this to the university is to help the attention deficiency, the rate of depression, the anxiety of students and the tendency [to commit] suicide among students," Balani said. "All of these things can be eliminated through breathing exercises to rejuvenate your own mind, body and soul."

This five-day intensive workshop involves a series of yoga exercises, meditation techniques and ancient yoga rhythmic breathing techniques.

"There's no prerequisite or requirements for this," Balani said. "All you have to do is come with an enthusiastic smile, comfortable clothing and a desire to do something good for your body, your mind and your life."

Balani said this course is necessary in order to achieve a significant change in one's life.

"To get something profound in your life, it's not going to come by doing something little, it's going to come by doing something profound," Balani said. "A five-day workshop is a commitment, but you won't get this from a 30-minute DVD."

Balani said she has had people tell her that after several months of the workshops, they've stopped taking medications for their asthma, attention deficit disorder or sleeping disorder. She said these workshops have the ability to prevent diseases later on in life as well.

"Tension and stress and negative thoughts manifest in a disease or a disorder later on in life through cell memory and that's why doing this cleanses yourself internally," Balani said. "You bathe everyday to cleanse outside, you must cleanse inside as well.

The Art of Living Foundation, a nonprofit education and humanitarian organization, was founded in 1981 by spiritual leader Sri Sri Ravi Shankar. It's currently one of the United Nations' largest volunteer-based non-governmental organizations.

"It offers workshops and seminars to teach you how to breathe," Balani said. "It's not a religious organization. It welcomes people from all walks of life and teaches you to live better by learning to breathe better."

"The Art of Living Foundation offers programs to uncover the strength, peace and joy that lie at the core of every human being," according to its Web site.

These workshops are taught in 150 countries, and more than 6 million people have been affected by the breathing exercises, Balani said.

"I always say that the mind is like the kite, the string is like the breath, you can control your thoughts and your breath and choose to be happy," Balani said. "Happiness is a choice."

The workshop will be taught by Mona Shah, an international traveling teacher who has been teaching for the past 17 years.

"[Shah] not only teaches students, but trains others teachers to teach college students," Balani said. "It took an entire year to get her to have faith in USC, because she doesn't teach small workshops, but more than 15 people have already signed up."

Balani said these workshops equip the participants with tools and techniques to empower their lives and become more responsible.

"On a larger scale, it also makes you a more responsible global citizen," she said. "It also makes us aware. We live our whole lives without being aware. It's very easy to lead these situations, everyone just needs to learn a technique to do it."

Liz Segrist
News Editor
The Daily Gamecock

For University of South Carolina

http://media.www.dailygamecock.com/media/storage/paper247/news/2009/03/20/News/FiveDay.Yoga.Class.Aims.To.Improve.Lives-3677298.shtml

Sunday, March 1, 2009

On Letting Go

Its easier than one would think,
to surrender and sit back
Its easier than to fight
to simply let go...

I sit here by the river
listening to the water
she tells me to flow
she asks me to mimic her

Its easier than I ever thought
to bow down and join hands
Its easier than to see you cry
to simply be...

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Familiarity

familiar in him I see a soul
engulfing every part of me
familiar in him I see a fact
of reaching out to flee

familiar is this familiarity
of us so familiar w/ each other
familiar w/each other
familiar oh so familiar
is this a lie? please tell me!

familiar I see a soul
engulfing his significant other
familiar in him I see a fact.. an act
of reaching out to flee...

familiar yet ..not
so ironic...nothing other
familiar..so very familiar
that when I look into his eyes
I loose the sense of comparing familiarity!

-Nisha Balani
June 2006


"In whirling everything turns and moves and whirls...

Until you find an unmoving center within yourself...

The Essence of whirling ...is no movement."

-Osho

Thursday, February 19, 2009

why so silent my love?

don’t go silent, my love
I can see that your unable to hide it
silence must be heard
love manifests that silence
silence of speech

oh what a wild thing to say
don’t be silent oh my love
when you talk of your love
fascinating is the vibrancy in your words
power dwells within them..
Encountered expressions
desire of thought...

Don’t go silent oh love...
even though I know this silence tells a tale
a tale of love... a tale of us

oh what a wild thing to say
don’t be silent oh my love...
build on to your words...
you’re not compressing the feeling
but in reality externalizing it
mortal is not this love... Oh dear
so don’t be silent now

because immortal is your soul
that seeks for the immortality of this very thing called love
don’t be silent my love...
But in turn teach me...
Evoke in me the thought and consideration of expression
coz often self is accused of a dun heart
oh what will I do with a dun heart ...

oh what a wild thing to say
don’t be silent my love
engulf me within u
I stand here with surrendered eyes
lit with care
craving for caress..

Don’t be silent oh my love
coz often self is accused to nature
of self nurture
it is the design in self my love
intentions don’t influence
evil hath not reside within me

resides what my love?
The answer you know... I believe
then why is this heart. My heart accused of evil
evil hath not evil to me my love
god hath not good
god is to be the one who hath made good and bad my love
then why is self accused of this belief

likewise love is god..
Love is god... my love!
may not a soul accuse god
may not a soul accuse love
love breaths in me
love breaths in u
it is what makes me
it is what makes u
if self is accused
god is accused!

then why are you silent my love?
Then why are you so silent?
why is self still accused of evil?

I only practice love
nor am I a destructing soul
neither am I a troublesome human
I live amongst people who know me to be foreign
my love hath be as pure as it can be of a native then why is self accused of evil?

self practices love ..
Self practices humbleness
self practices smiles…

Why r u silent my love?

-Nisha Balani
2006

Hue

Your love is the most obvious manifestation
And u r right
Its like two olors are blending into one hue
This hue of… Serenity
Its often seems to me that I am painting
Or I am actually within a painting
Where things and objects and colors have feelings
We hide and veil our selves behind these shades
Not destroying the painting
But beautifying it even more
You know ...
People assume and state that nature is perfect
I disagree
Design is perfect
And by design I am referring to the ultimate energy
But nature is the artwork of design
And this work of art is not perfect
And therefore it is beautiful
And I want u to know that... In this life may you never ever ponder upon the thought of how u thought it wasn’t "perfect"
I am not perfect and neither are you
And therefore our relationship...as I said earlier is merely a hue
Nothing less and nothing more
Yet in only that one phrase ...
I have expressed a feeling that is even beyond my own comprehension

-Nisha Balani
2007

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Prana


Flow on to me
Flow in to me
For I crave and long
For only some warmth

Pour on to me
Pour from within me
For I seek to give
Not just take

Live for me
Live within me
For I ask only ask
For some Life.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Gayatri

ॐ भूर्भुवः स्वः ।
तत् सवितुर्वरेण्यं ।

भर्गो देवस्य धीमहि ।

धियो यो नः प्रचोदयात् ॥
ॐ भूर्भुवः स्वः ।
तत् सवितुर्वरेण्यं ।
भर्गो देवस्य धीमहि ।
धियो यो नः प्रचोदयात् ॥

ॐ भूर्भुवः स्वः ।
तत् सवितुर्वरेण्यं ।
भर्गो देवस्य धीमहि ।
धियो यो नः प्रचोदयात् ॥
ॐ भूर्भुवः स्वः ।
तत् सवितुर्वरेण्यं ।

भर्गो देवस्य धीमहि ।

धियो यो नः प्रचोदयात् ॥


Friday, January 23, 2009

Blurp- First Journal Entry 11:11


My blog will listen. Or so I hope.

Beautiful weather, I love it when your skins says, "I can breathe", yes it talks to me. I enjoyed being in my skin today. I enjoyed a long productive day. It was full of running errands, meeting people, submitting applications, and getting a lot more for just a day. It was on a roll. I met my family for a wonderful dinner. I have not enjoyed a dinner like that in a while now. My stomach said, "thank you, I loved it" it talks to me too.

music has been keeping my spirits high. I am not thinking of what is not required of. I am adamant about owning my smile and will not give it up. I have lots to be grateful for! lots!

Grace is visiting me again. It seemed like it had left me for a little while. May be it went on a vacation. I stopped seeing 11:11, 1:11 or 11:01 all together. It was very random that I realized about its absence in my daily life and how I missed it.

When I called for it to return to me, It did! Within the next day or so I started to see it again. On the computer, on my phone, in my car.. everywhere. It followed me like a shadow.. protecting me like a bubble. I started to talk with it now in my car. I talk to it when I want to share pain, or joy, ask a favor or vent. Its nice about listing. And when it wants to tell me that things will be okay...I see it. I see 11:11.

Thank, you for returning. I missed you. Stay, don't leave this time. I need you through it all. Stay with me, we'll have some good time together. I wont bore you, I can tell you that.

Ive stated to like my company. Living alone after all is not that bad. I think it just depends on how you look at it.

So come test me, I am here standing tough. Do it all to take me down...but you wont get my soul. You wont get my charm. And you certainly wont get my smile, I can tell you that!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Reason


I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you…